Lonely but never alone

Trapped in my own thoughts
Found you
Had to let go
Lonely
But never alone
Trapped in my own thoughts
Of knowing that I had found you but decided to let you go 
Because I love you
In my mind I was not ready to let you in
I turned around before you could  see my face my tears
For I am not ready to let you in
My wounds are to deep
Just now this I am lonely but never alone

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

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Biography

            
I was born in Bethal were my grandparents raised me sadly when they passed away then I had to go back to Boksburg my Dad could never accept me but my Mom tried very hard to raise me and my 2 brothers. With little money she made as a bus driver. I always stood out for had good grades then one morning after going hungry again I was working at the tuckshop at school for a but of extra money . Then after another night of hearing my brothers complaints I decided to leave high school with grade 9  I got work at a drycleaners worked there for a few months then went to work for Toyota forklift as a receptionist I did the back up on those big spools early the morning then did filling was they called it those days (Girl Friday) it ment doing a bit of everything for everyone then I met my husband we got married stopped working then later tried the be a hairdressers even worked in the offices at checkers.  Then I decided to loose weight lost all my weight in 9 months at Weighless they entered me into weightless woman of the year my before and after posters everywhere . The towns people at Delmas gave me a makeover for the big day. I was a finalist then the big day at Springs I won and was the winner lost 37.4 kg in 9 months of the East Rand area division of 2007 Weightless slimmer of the year competitions on 15 June. THEN got in another car accident and was hurt bad and picked up all the weight we moved to Nelspruit were I got depressed finally after a 10 year battle in court the road accident fund paid me a little money . I wasn’t like before no money can fix me so I saved my money I got each month from the trust bought me a camera and my own computer   and since then when I got depressed I went exploring nature I got several awards on Google for a butterfly and a stick insect I discovered my passion searching the unknown to see how close or if I can touch the scary or harmless snakes.  I admit a am a adrenaline junky. I used to walk 5 to 10 km just to avoid cleaning my house. I clean cook and spend time with nature. never miss a sunset ,sunrise or moon rise or moon set. I am a dreamer life in my own fantasy world were I can escape from all my trauma in my life . I was raped got cancer got depression then insomnia I think it’s the worst thing to suffer from. I had my gallbladder removed had a lift stroke but that’s things I want to forget. I am married with 2 kids own 2 properties.  I enjoy walking and writing and taking photos and sharing what I see or feel.  That’s why
Since i can remember i had always believed once you accepted your flaws you will succeed .strong willed stuburn and caring nature got me in alot of trouble of the years but every teardrop taught me a lesson made me stronger  .my dream is to change the worlds view on poferty .the poor food for all no more hunger so With my pen and notepad and my eyes as my camera my brein ny hard drive  i traveled the world taking notes as far as i traveled .trough the storms in my life aswell as through the calm seasoons in my life i learned so much .my eyes became my airplane and as tecnoligy grew so did ny travels from the couch in my living room i travelled throughout the world .i became a blogger and writerand published poet i published 5 books my first book was in 2013 it was a recipy book and photo book about butterflies and birds then a recepy book and also a educational book about snakes last book was about poetry and butterflies it’s at http://www.Groep7.co.za . In 2016 got a chance to be part of yet another 4 poetry books their names is Geloof.Hoop.Vriendskap. Liefde together with 28 other poets its at Marleo Publishers my frienships grew i visited people from all countries they became my family the one i never had i can honestly say i am blessed as a human being although i am just a small grain of sand in a bottle compare to the world my travels is ongoing my final destination is known only by my Heavenly Father .
Author Maria Cornelia                        

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

Valentino

I have all I desire
Accept you Valentino
For the rest of my life
You are my addiction
Valentino that night
Thinking back of  that night was magic
Those endless warm wind I felt around me
It blew us in to each others arms
The moon bright the stars bright
Our love is forever
Valentino I love you so
I feel you I am in your heart you told me so
So you become my secret lover
Who knew you’re just the wind
Description
No earthly posesions can replace that feeling of being loved or in love

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

Spider falling in love with a moth

Spider falling in love with a moth

Like a spider caught up in your Web
I couldn’t resist your inviting Web your beautiful colours those sweet sent
What will our friends say
You work hard to start a new life

Now I am caught in your Web
We started to fall in love
You came in my life now I can’t life without being caught up in your Web

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

Mixed emotions

Mixed emotions when I kissed you under the purple tree of love
We walked side by side
Them stopped because my heart was racing so fast
Then we talked and talked
You gave me your heart then
When you left I knew I might never see you again
One thing I know
I met and felt love under the purple tree that day
Till today not sure if you were real or just my imagination creating you to hide for this pain
I never felt so save and calm I walked the streets that day
Talking to this man
I spoke my heart ,cried and I am sure I felt you hugging me
That day you said
I will come back one day
I waited for you
But my fears is gone
I feel like the old me
This probably was an angel that Passed through
All I know is my heart feels lighter
And that I need you to come back still so many secrets must be told so that my burden can be lighter
You said you’re always around I feel you but don’t see you please come back I need you

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

When one door closes another door will apear

When one door closes another door will apear

Those few minutes with you felt like heaven when we kissed you took my pain
You left with a piece of my heart
I can’t get you out of my mind I just met you when laying in your arms I knew I found you please don’t run away run towards me when in your arms I can conquer the world feel save and warm
Writer and Poet Maria Cornelia Abetti

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

Without you

Your the apple in my pie without you there no pie
You the ingredients of my miltart without you there are just no milktart just a empty plate
Without you there is no reason to bake

Author Maria Cornelia Abetti

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